The wealth I have

There is a police to protect my belongings. How much can I keep to myself? There is no limit. I can make you all starve, can I. No. I cann't. My supplies wont last long how much wealth I have if I make you starve. My happiness can be optimized only if I give you a little to make you survive. Just good enough to make you survive. I know you wont suicide bacause you live just hand to mouth. I can teach you a religion to make you feel good. And work for me in good spirit. I can fund a religion for doing that for me. And a government that protects my wealth.  

modelling in ecology

What you did out there is so "true" and "real". What I do in here as a modeler is all bullshit. I've read a couple of nice articles on the 'art of modelling' recently. In modelling what we do is, we are trying to frame or plugin our 'imagination' into what is 'never' out there. We carve reality. That's why models cant predict damn anything in "ecology". What is existing in the modeling academia are our 'dreams'. It is a dream world; there we learn how to dream. That's why the models cant be generalized, and can't be used anywhere else other than on what they are originally carved out from. One can model the same processes in many different frameworks with the same precision. None of them could predict reasonably well unless we come up with a humiliating range of uncertainty with a complex analysis that nobody else can understand. We are thrilled to talk about "stochasticity" in ecology (readily borrowed from physics) so that we can legitimately cover up our ignorance and sell our "ideas" easily to the innocent public. Getting grants means we are "selling" our "bullshit" to the people. We actually do not sell, we are stealing their money. They don't even know that they pay us for nothing. We scare shit out of them to stand up and inquire. In the hind side, we are afraid of them (like dogs), and stress upon the "uncertainty" as a scape goat (bark out loud). Scientific facts we know of are all opinions. What is left over from "my" kind of science is "art". I don't do science in here... At least I know it. The whole point is, on the contrary, what 'You' do may be very good science, but me. The fact is that stochastic models that I do can never be proven wrong. If they cant be proven nor rejected, how can they be good science. They are only good for philosophizing our drunkard thrill. Stochasticity is like god created on the contrary to what people think generally. Most of the quantum physicists have become god believers recently. The "order" in our conceptions is what I think is un-godly like, it is something that we created in our imaginations. Physicists don't have an answer to why the conceptual layer (the observational) is deterministic while the "realistic" layer (subatomic) is intrinsically random, god like. But anyway, I am glad that everything around me is not like the art of Jackson Pollock, which is pretty random. Art of Pollock is more like people sleeping with each other like in the Melrose Place, and children have no fathers, and then they have sex with their mothers.. and the mothers have children of their children,.. and so on. "Intrinsic Ecology". I don't think I like that kind of "stochasticity". It is going to be boring when you have a head to be jealous of... For that the world needs to be deterministic. Forget it! It's all bullshit!

friends

Labels suck! aren't they? What is a "friendship" if you don't mean it!
What is a friendship anyway?
What value? what costs? what choices we make?
People don't do that. Technically friends don't exist.

people down the road

Look how heavy are those people walking down the isle from building to building. I am talking about the university campus. They are absolutely "me" in everywhere. The ignorance, love, hatred, deceases, stupidity, conceitedness, and what not. All the peril, all the magnanimity. They all look very important to themselves. But not to one another. Each one look at each other as another stupid lot. Nobody is right, nobody is wrong. Enlightenment is not one, it is non-singular. Quantum reality is not the consciousness.

why Markovian

Where would I begin? To keep a diary of my chaotic thought process. For who's interest? I dont know. I dont need a purpose. It is rediculus to look for purposes.

To tell you about myself, I am prettry much Markovian. I wake up into a mood of the day depending on what I dreamt of the night before. I cant remember what my life was like two days ago. The fact is, I dont want to. My life i memoryless. Life is so exciting and open when you dont have a past. The past kills you. What's the use of the past anyway. What does it bring. Nothing. Past is gone. What I think today is invalid tomorrow. Why we need to be consistent? Everything is circumstantial. Nothing is solid. So is our mind set.

What is life is like for the uptight people. Their principles, values, morals. Where do they stand in a stochastic world? What do they control? They are surrounded by walls that they themselves have builtup. By which they themselves suffer. They themselves torture. Nobody else bothers.