why Markovian

Where would I begin? To keep a diary of my chaotic thought process. For who's interest? I dont know. I dont need a purpose. It is rediculus to look for purposes.

To tell you about myself, I am prettry much Markovian. I wake up into a mood of the day depending on what I dreamt of the night before. I cant remember what my life was like two days ago. The fact is, I dont want to. My life i memoryless. Life is so exciting and open when you dont have a past. The past kills you. What's the use of the past anyway. What does it bring. Nothing. Past is gone. What I think today is invalid tomorrow. Why we need to be consistent? Everything is circumstantial. Nothing is solid. So is our mind set.

What is life is like for the uptight people. Their principles, values, morals. Where do they stand in a stochastic world? What do they control? They are surrounded by walls that they themselves have builtup. By which they themselves suffer. They themselves torture. Nobody else bothers.